Walking down the halls, each one of you on opposite sides, ignoring each other, and looking away. You know it shouldn’t be this way.
I don't know what to write.
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ok, I seriously don't.
And, damn. I don't know whats wrong with blogger. cannot upload pictures. ):
And, I just want to let the people around me to know that I am trying to hold back my tears already, I am trying to be strong already. But the tears will fall themselves and being strong is tiring.
I am sick and tired of being strong.
But I not like xp, cry until eye inflammation. -.-
Nearly got herself blind.
But I cry until going to cry blood out already. -.-
Anyways, been spending my afternoons playing badminton with yl, jx, puteri, cynthia and fatin. The usual gang. And we can like high then suddenly cry. Especially me and fatin and puteri. Fate has played a cruel joke on all of us. ):
And I cannot concentrate on anything anymore now. Nothing can make me disract myself. To make things worse, Brian is not coming to school for this whole week. Don't have his organiser to distract me.
And tianjie.. Urgh.
He kept saying that I misses Brian and he keep asking me to make Brian my next target. And he keep saying that Brian cute cause I said it when Brian do some funny things. And he says Chong Soon likes Xinpeng cause they sitting together. He likes to couple people up. -.-
And people can see the very super obvious panda eyes of mine. Yeah, I didn't really sleep well since god-knows-when. And jiaxuan says I looks pale and my skin is super dry. And everybody thinks that I am pregnant cause I look super fragile and tired.
Alright, this post is super random.
I should go and cry myself to sleep now.
Must try to sleep early ler.
If seeing you hurts so badly, if looking at you means another stab to my already shattered heart, no matter how much I miss you, I don't want to see you again. I don't want to hurt anymore. I want to find back my happiness, I want to be back to the old me. So, no matter how much I want to see you, I don't want to see you anymore.
I am trying to forget, and seeing him everyday doesn't helps. It is like pressing the reset button again and again. And it hurts seeing him too. Whatever happiness I feel before seeing him is gone when I see him. I can be from damn high turn into damn low. But why, no matter how bad I don't want to see him, I still bump to him somehow? Though it don't matter to him, it matter a lot to me, my heart and my tear glands.
Be strong.