我 怀 念 的 是 無 話 不 說
我 怀 念 的 是 一 起 做 夢
我 怀 念 的 是 爭 吵 以 后 還 是 想
要 愛 你 的 沖 動
我 記 得 那 年 生 日 也 記 得 那 一 首 歌
記 得 那 片 星 空 最 緊 的 右 手 最 暖 的 胸 口
誰 記 得 誰 忘 了
Arghh. Broke down again and again today.
And since Xinpeng says that I shouldn't cry in class, I went to the toilet to cry. And I locked myself in a cubicle. And almost all the girls in the class came to toilet and try to break down the door. And that make me cry even harder.
I know, I shouldn't cry anymore. I should be strong. I am trying. Really, I am. And it has been months. I should let it all go. But it is hard. Let it go little by little?
But memories don't fade so easily. At least for me. Whenever I let go the tiniest bit, all the memories came flooding back and tears will starts flowing. And the worst part is, being forgotten by someone you can never forget.
'I guess life took us in two different directions and maybe that's okay with you but sometimes I find myself trying to find my way back to where you are. '
'I hate knowing we've changed. I miss you so much. It tears me up knowing you don’t look at me as the best friend I used to be to you.'
'I saw you today and realized how far apart we’ve grown. I know I should talk to you and ask you how you’re doing. And I really wish I could. But it’s just occurred to me that we’re strangers now. You don’t know me anymore, much less want to, and it’s okay that you’ve moved on. I know that everything’s different now. I’ve been staying strong.'
'It has to be hard to watch someone you love change before your eyes and know you can’t do anything about it but it must be heartbreaking to remember the way they once were. '
'It breaks my heart to see how much you've changed.'
But no matter how much I cry, how miserable and broken I am feeling inside, I will be strong and smile. Even if it kills me, I am going to smile.
Everything passes away. Everything will change. But no matter what, I wish I can remember my love forever, I wish the memories will be kept in my heart forever and I will never forget them.
But now, I got to keep everything in my heart and concentrate in what I've got to do now. Streamings are round the corner, must buck up. And I must jia you in dance too.
You can do it. Show everyone you can.
It is still okay to cry though.
To me, you are still forever special.