Many things happened today that make me super super super angry.
The first thing in the morning when I wake up is to quarrel with my mother.
And I was so pissed off.
And I reached yishun at around 7.10. Super late.
So I got a cab.
And, pardon me for being racist, but i got on that super black guy's cab.
I got in and told him I want to go to Ahmad Ibrahim Secondary School.
He ask me, yishun ring road ar?
I told him, I don't know. Just go straight.
And when he reach the new yishun primary there, he ask me turn here ar?
I say, no.
And I think he didn't dig his ears or something, he turn into the road.
And I was feeling so super duper du lan with him.
My whole face turn as black as his face.
And i told him to drop me off at the old yishun primary bus stop there.
And when he stop the cab, the meter fare there write: $3.60
So, I gave him $5.
He return me $1 and say he don't have shillings.
I was like lgwrho89372#$$#@^(%$%%HBgbfddfrt45 >:(
And when I got off, I slammed the door as hard as I could.
And I am nearly late for school.
And today still got many things that makes me very angry/pissed. Well, since they are all unhappy things, should stop mentioning them and forget about it right? LOL.
Was feeling super dizzy today. So I did not dance even though I went to dance. And I went around the school to look for Ms Cheng to confirm the name for Chingay dance but she was not in school. So went back dance studio and sat at one corner, writing down all the dance steps, points to take notes and the ballet techniques in my newly bought dance journal. (:
Yeah, I am a 'notebook-collector'. My house got like more than 10 funky notebooks to write down different things. And these don't even include my diaries. LOL.
Oh did I mention that our batch have 3 straight theory periods with Mrs Chew today? *yawns*
Once an independent and self-assured girl, I had became dependent and insecure. I can do nothing but sit back and watch my whole life crumble down bit by bit. I want to be back to the old, confident, secured hui ying. Not this girl who can't do anything. I really hate it when everything turn out this way. Where I know and can see that I am heading to a dead end, yet, I can do nothing about it. What are friends for? What are studies for? What are families for? Why am I working so hard? What am I working so hard for? Who am I working hard for? Me, or the people around me?
only jiaxuan understands. can you stop adding salt to the wounds and show some support instead?
P.S I still haven't make up my mind on whether to go or not to go.
Why am I so hesitant?
Ok, off to study.